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Journal Entry: Sun Nov 15, 2009, 11:09 AM

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^{I read `Mollinda's journal today, and it really made a lot of things clear for me.
I've been thinking a lot differently than other people since a very young age, have been very self-aware, and known what I wanted since I was probably 5 years old.
I'm pretty sure it seperated me from the other children, and I'm also pretty sure that to the other children, I was obviously not like them, not in thinking patterns, mannerisms or otherwise. And this made me stand out like a sore thumb, made me into someone to ignore at all costs.

I remember thinking when I was in the first years of schooling; "why am I here, did I do something wrong?", I didn't get on with, or understand any of the other children, just wasn't on the same wavelength, and thought I must've been lumped in with these lesser people as some kind of punishment, I didn't understand.

I'd hold my hand up in class and the teacher would ignore me. I'd say something I thought was funny to classmates and they'd look at me as though I had two heads.
And then I just stopped trying.
Those years felt at the time like an eternity, but a year or two later, I moved up in the years and finally people talked to me. A little. But I feared that was only because they must've been repremanded for ignoring the weird girl (remember now, I'm only between 6 and 7...)

And later on when we moved to the next school, I finally found a friend.
He and me were inseperable, he'd stay round my house, we'd play the N64 and watch TV for hours on end, and took the piss out of people we didn't like.
Then another year later I met another 2 friends, changing the twosome into the quartet.

It's times like these when I realise I'll never fit in with the normal people I tried so hard to win over in the early years, that I'm in fact much better than them. Me and my friends are so much better than they are, or could ever hope to be.
It's these friends I'd like to thank.
For sticking by me, warts and all, and making my years with them precious.
I love you guys.}

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=RebelViva 4 days 3 hours ago

Thanks for the fave!!!

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~Eme-Raude 4 days 23 hours ago

Hello! been a while since I contacted you ^^ I just wanted to say you have gorgeous dolls XD You invested a lot eh? I want one too ;_;

Sorry for the rendomness haha I just have a doll fever now!

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